Wednesday, October 28, 2009
She will be just fine
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
From Baby Ruth to Biopsy
Today was a day to forget, not one of those when you look and think hey this day was great I hope to relive it again. For starters, I was incredibly tired from lack of sleep not because of the amounts of tossing and turning, however it is actually a good tired if there is even such a thing. Late night conversations with people you really enjoy talking to usually fall into this category. Hopefully it will continue! I guess the sleeping patterns that I have been experimenting with have finally caught up to me. Not to mention going to work and finding out you were supposed to finish something yesterday but didn't and had to hear about it from just about everybody. ( TPS Reports). However, the real excitement did not come until later on in day when I had to talk to my boss about those “things” I failed to do before I left from work yesterday. Nothing too harsh, just your average lecture about how we (all) and when I say all she really meant ME, need to increase our productivity and to keep customers #1 in our minds. Excuse me, but when was the last time the customer thought to keep us #1 in their minds??? It probably wasn't as bad as I am making it out to be however, it was not something I particularly wanted to hear right before I go home. When I had finally gotten home all I could think of was to lay on the couch and turn my mind off and watch things on TV that would probably make me retarded but that was Ok because I thought in my mind I had earned it. When you deal with nurses all day you tend to be a little bitter and unreasonable at the end of the mind numbing day.
Before I could plop myself on the couch I received a phone call from the older sibling, but I couldn't hear her because she was whispering. She began with the words DAD's Cholesterol is 285!! Now I am no nurse or Dr. but I do know that is an incredibly big number to have in terms of your health. I started laughing because in the back of my mind I always knew this was going to happen to someone who buys 6 bags of candy for Halloween and only uses about 1 ½. Than when you ask him about it he pretends like hes finding out for the first time. Also coming from a guy who will eat whatever he can as long as its either sweet, salty or just plain not good for you. The man is a machine. Well this machine has not gotten a tune up in a long time. So after hearing about it I decided to confront the culprit first hand:
Me: Hey Mr. 285
D: What?? Who told you that?
Me: Mom and Sis
D: No, they don't know what they are talking about, its not that bad
Me: Dad I have found bags of Candy all over and they are Baby Ruth ( favorite), you hide it in your car, your lunch bag, and even in your bedroom closet.
The conversations with my D, never seem to amaze me because of the stuff he comes up with. He can make everything out of a joke and think its funny. My M seems to think hes not letting on that he is really scared, I guess because he wants us to think that he is strong etc. My M got back on the phone and I'm thinking well this day has sucked what else, and just when I started to think that M was like well I went to the Dr. and they found something. Now I'm not usually good with taking bad news, but this was different. It was my M, and to say that she has a special place in my heart, well that would be the biggest understatement of my life. I love her like a fat kid loves cake. She has always been there for me and is really where I get most of my strength from. So as the conversation continued she revealed that cancer MIGHT rear its ugly head. Now I know people get cancer all the time, in fact some of my friends mom's have cancer and I always thought it was a horrible thing, but God would never do that to me. I have been through enough myself for the whole family and than some.
D-day is October 1st and we will find out what happens. If there is one thing that annoys me about my mom its that she hides everything from me and my sister. Heaven forbid if something happens to us and we didn't tell her. She says that she didn't want us to worry, but how is that not possible especially when you love someone so much. I eventually started to calm down when I got some much needed information from someone. Apparently it is very common to have a cyst and the odds of actually having cancer are very slim, and the good news is that they caught it at an early stage if in fact it turns out to be cancerous. Until than, I will keep my fingers crossed that everything will work out the way its supposed too. So Thank you, to that special someone who has helped me through it.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Always Check your Pockets
Sunday, September 13, 2009
1985... Wouldnt Be so bad??
I recently celebrated another birthday, I swear I just did this not too long ago. My mom of course was the first to remind me of how old I'm getting by saying “Can you just go back to when you were 3 yrs old, you were so damn cute running around in your little shorts.” Of course I said “Mom, are you kidding me? NO.” Than after thinking about it, I began wishing that wouldn't be so bad. I mean right now I have a full time job, bills, stress, Why wouldn't I want too? 1985 was so easy, I just slept, ate and played with my He-Man action figures and on occasion cried if I didn't get my way. What could be bad?
The world revolved around my toys and when I could watch the eventual Super Bowl Champion Chicago Bears that year. The hardest part of the day was deciding if I wanted to watch cartoons or go to the park and play. It's crazy to think that the simplest things in life make you so happy. I cant think of the last time I was as happy as I was when I was Three. Everything was simple, my sister would be at school and I was at home with my mom. Here is a typical day according to my Mom of when I was Three:
8:00 - Wake up Watch Cartoons, Eat
9:00 -Cartoons
10:00: Play with toys
11:00 More toys
12:00 Eat lunch- sometimes a Happy Meal at McDonald's which was the highlight of the day
1:00 Go to the Park or the Pool
2:00 Nap
3:00 Sister comes home and play and annoy her
4:00 Cartoons
5:00 Play more
6:00 eat dinner
7:00 dress up in my Bears football uniform and play football in the living room
8:00 Bed time
Ok, so maybe this might be a slight exaggeration not everyday could be so eventful, I did actually do some productive things like color or draw or scribble on my Bears coloring book. I usually had to go run errands with my mom and If I was good we would go feed the ducks at the river walk. I did not have to worry about work, what to make for dinner, my bank account none of those.
However, I neglected to think of all the things that do make me happy that I for sure could not do when I was three such as: driving no matter where it be with music blaring or Football weekends with friends grilling out or looking forward to Softball or Flag football games during the week. Looking back on 1985 I forgot how fun it can be to be older. I guess 2009 isn't as bad as I thought!
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Mr. Universe
I have been now three days and every day has been easier than the last. I feel so soar the next day but i guess that means that im not wasting my money. I have been drinking protein shakes and trying not too eat soo much junk but rather bannannas and other things that people call "healthy". I'm hoping that I'm not just wasting time and money but it actually serves a purpose. My goal is to put on at least 20 pounds. Hopefully than I can enter the Mr. Universe contest.
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Not Shutting the Door
After some time off because.. Well basically I didnt have anything really to write about. Something happend that has changed my life. After 4 years of great companionship I decided to cut ties with my significant other. I had been thinking about this decision for quite sometime. My feelings are being sorted still 5 days, after the aftermath known as our relationship. I won't go into exact detail why I decided to make this decision, but I will leave you with an Idea. I had been going out with M without her parents really knowing what was going on. Your first question might be why in god's name did her parents not know about a courtship of over 4 years? The answer to that my friend is that they( M's Parents) were not particularly fond of my decent. Since I'm of the Indian persuasion they felt that, that alone was not good enough for their daughter. However, M felt differently. We had been caught before and warned not to defy them. By we, I mean M had been warned with threats of monument fashion. **** They have yet to meet me or give me a chance***
Threats that are so severe that M, would be fincancially cut off for the rest of her life if we were found guilty. At 22 she was not in the position to tell her parents the truth, so she lead a double life, constantly lying and decieving her parents. Well after dealing with this for 4 years I felt as though she needed to let her parents know what was going on. So I told her I would like it if she told her parents about our relationship. She hesitated, which I dont blame her for, worried about the consequences she might face. So after months and months of telling her that it would be better for her to tell her parents, rather than us getting caught and than really paying for it. M was left in a quandry. It felt as though she was caught between her parents and me. Don't get me wrong I love the girl, however it seemed as though she needed time to really think about what she really wanted, As do I. M, was talking about seriously settling down sometime in the furture to be able to tell her parents. However, I'm not ready because 1. i have not graduated yet and 2. Im not sure if I really want to make a committment this early in my life without a job etc. I don't blame M one bit if she continues to not tell her parents becuase to loose your parents support both financially and emotionally is a big step.
So although im not ready to fully end things with M, I feel as though we both need to take time apart to see what we both need and want. IF it leads back to us I will definetly not object to getting back together. I dont know how I'm dealing with it right now, but im just trying to take it one day at a time and see where that takes me.